seriously.... right now I don't know how to sort out my thoughts and feeling into words...

I'm just feel so angry with myself.... Broke down to tears after the item at CHC.. I actually did a mistake that dancers should not make which is forget steps .... really.. I was just nervous until.. sigh... SORRY.. I dragged all of u down for that performance... really sorry... I angried with myself, I was not forced to perform that item and learnt the routine on Saturday.. I blieved Time is not the reason lei !! SHIT ME LA.... SOmemore when I forgot the steps, I was at middle front.... I dunno la, But I felt this somehow will affect the rest behind coz they will see me missing 3 steps then it might distract them a little...

I'm felt so sad that I actually had confidence before the performance.. But I just screwed it ....

I'm felt sorry to Orange, becca, Karen, lesther, chansee, alexis that I screwed it up... I'm sorry and also thanks for teaching us the routine for "don't stop the music" 1 day before the performance which you don't usually will do... And also scolded us to wake us up.. really thanks alot! and also to karen that asked me to perform for the CHC.. But, I'm sorry ... I screwed it up..

A harsh lesson that I attanded today