seriously.... right now I don't know how to sort out my thoughts and feeling into words...

I'm just feel so angry with myself.... Broke down to tears after the item at CHC.. I actually did a mistake that dancers should not make which is forget steps .... really.. I was just nervous until.. sigh... SORRY.. I dragged all of u down for that performance... really sorry... I angried with myself, I was not forced to perform that item and learnt the routine on Saturday.. I blieved Time is not the reason lei !! SHIT ME LA.... SOmemore when I forgot the steps, I was at middle front.... I dunno la, But I felt this somehow will affect the rest behind coz they will see me missing 3 steps then it might distract them a little...

I'm felt so sad that I actually had confidence before the performance.. But I just screwed it ....

I'm felt sorry to Orange, becca, Karen, lesther, chansee, alexis that I screwed it up... I'm sorry and also thanks for teaching us the routine for "don't stop the music" 1 day before the performance which you don't usually will do... And also scolded us to wake us up.. really thanks alot! and also to karen that asked me to perform for the CHC.. But, I'm sorry ... I screwed it up..

A harsh lesson that I attanded today

Back from lepak with cheng, ben, sotong, ron & wei jun.. woohoo.. While chatting at basketball, saw chee cheng practise roller-blading and of course, we did some bboy..HAHAHA! I DID my BABYFREEZE!!! for some of you, babyfreeze to you is easy but then, really la today i just did my baby freeze..hahaha!! Then, ben they all also practise some freezes too! haha, just having our fun at the basketball court =) I missed playing basketball at 515 man... It have been so long since I stepped in the court, playing the basketball...

Ytd went to ben house for X'mas!! Saw farid, ore , john and david.. hahaha! Surfed the youtube for alot of funny videos!! really really damn funny! hahahaha.. After that, they went back coz they got work the next day =) Left me, shawnald, alvin, louis, ben zo, anjo, stacey... We got to eat turkey..hahahah! and some other nice food that Ben's mother brought back! THANKS MAN!!
We watched 2 moives for that day man... IP man and also, BOLT... What I can say about IP man was that.... THE ENGLISH SUBTITLES CMI LA!!! hahahaha! Guess what ... NI HAO = you good , CHINESE KUNGFU = chinese effort and many more funny subtitles that the people can create!!! hahaha!!
Then, fell asleep at about 4-5am?? Woke up at 1pm for our lunch at mac... then home sweet home liao.. hahaha! Great X'mas =)

TML is night cycling day!!! I BEEN TON-ING FOR 4 days!!! tml will be my 5th day ton!!!! WOOHOO!!!!

Merry christmas

Hope everyone having a great christmas with their friends or family =) Ytd was X'mas eve, had pizza at home with mum and sister before going for dinner at marine parade.. hahhaa.. BUT THEN, I was sleepin in 966 until... it passed the marine parade bus stop but I wasn't aware of it man!!! By the time I realised I already reach back bukit panjang !!!!! 2 HOURS OF RIDE and I back to woodland, HAHAHAHAHA!! Damn stupid la me...

Ton at Jon house with carefree dudes.. =) Dota, mahjong and of course, DRINK!!! THis time we drank without mixing with other greentea or soft drink.. Just simply drink the chivas with the tiny shots glass... HAHAHAHA!! what can I say, It's just so shiok la... can feel the heat.... hahahaha... Finished the whole bottle damn fast due to that stupid "cannot say wo , ni , ta " game and other games that we played...

After drinking, everyone all red like hell after all the drinking... Just chit chat, I bet some just said without thinking ar.. hahahaa!! I think me too la.. Just simply speak whatever we felt like ... Cabbed home at 7am =) slept until 4pm man.... hahahaha!!

Today is christmas day!!! Going to ben zo's house later at night for another ton.... Tuesday ton gaming with carefree dudes, Ytd ton drinking with carefree dudes, Today ton at ben's house !!! TML dunno got anyone jio me ton anot.. hahahaa! den Sat is night cycling !! another ton day !! THIS WEEK IS MY TON WEEK!!

The gay's corner... hahaha!!

It's over... Danzation'08... Once it ended, I already missing it already ! haha.. The days that we spent our time in studio & convention centre, the fun we had together, the love we shared to each and everyone along the way to danzation.. To me, all these are so damn damn priceless... Still remember a time when we are not allow to go to studio 73 to prac... Even that, nothing could stop us from dancing, going studio 16 , 18 and even prac anywhere that has reflection.. Everyone was perspiring badly coz no air con but then yup, nothing could just stop our love for dance ! Thinking back, 4months have flies so fast as we got each other back and push each other whenever anyone of us is feeling down.. That's what friends are for right? Encourage you when you're down, Chiong with you.. hahaha!

Hahaha! actually I got Damn lots of thing to say but then I just couldn't put them into words!!.. I never regret coming to NRA!!! I regretted coming to NRA at year 2 man!! really really... NRA is not a club, but a family to me... A second place that I could actually call it HOME!!! I'm proud to be part of NRA!!!! I'm happy to take part in DANZATION'08!!!!!!! I'm feel happy to be able to dance with all of you man!!!!!

THANKS FOR COMING DOWN TO WATCH DANZATION' 08!!!! Hope you guys enjoyed the show!! Especially my sister, mother , aunty, my small cousins and my brothers!!!! I feel REALLY REALLY HAPPY that you guys could actually come down to support us!! Since this is my first time dancing on stage!! REALLY THANKS ALOT!!!

Danzation ended But
my love for dance did not end
It just continue to grow rapidly


I LOVE THIS!

I BELIEVE,
WE BELIEVE,
THEY BELIEVE

GOOD JOB !!!! Let's bring it to the higher level tml!!!!! JIA YOU JIA YOU!!!!!

Tml is the day that we worked hard for!!! Because of this production, our bonding as a family got stronger, deeper than ever!! LET'S DO THIS!!!! JIA YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thanks for the cards from christine and choy and SMS from karen!!!

One more day to danzation!
do you know about my feeling for you? I dun think you do but I'll still be with you ;)

2 more days to the BIG DAY!!! danzation'08 in 2 days !!!! really really damn excited and of course, nervous... Hope I will not do any silly mistakes.. hahaha.. Actually this week has nothing much to blog coz everyday was DANCE day. I wun say jia you for us anymore... coz I really feel it is beyond jia you le.... But what can I say... LET'S DO IT!!!!!! WE'RE GETTING THERE!!!!

hahaha! Another short entry =) Going to bath and go alumin to meet ben zo,shawnald, xiao qiang,louis and alvin for lunch liao.. see ya dudes =)

Take Good Care man! ,
my friends, my brothers, my family, everyone that I know =)

Im tired.. back from camp.. I din help much... Im sorry for that man .... hm.. when got time den I update with tons of my nagging.... now just a short entry..

I will JIAYOU for danzation.. For the items I had... I will jia you!!!

Decision making is one of the hardest yet simple thing that people have to face it..

I felt what raven said was right, I have to make decision everyday in my life.. Be it, forgone movie for a MC so that I can excused for missing the exam which I did today or otherwise.. I felt that everytime when it's come to decision making, I wanted to find a way that can make both things to be done, like faster chiong to see doctor, then go and see movie.. I wan a decision that can satisfy all the things I want... Is it call demanding? But who's does want it ?? You can get what you want to do without giving anything a miss..

Anyway, I not be able to online for 3days since I will be going to green camp @ wgs ! It gonna be a 3 busy days for me ...
morning - camp then rush to rehearsal,
night - rush back to camp .....

This is one of the example, I find ways so that I din missed the camp.. Even though I will be busy but I don't mind it at all coz this is what I decided....

Whatever decision you made,
Just make sure you give it your best with what you have..

Just don't have that contradict mind like mine..

last paper to go... totally no mood to study since ytd.. but I have to study... see how.. maybe I just go and sleep.. I feeling so tired mentally .. So much thoughts have been flowing through my mind whenever I was given a time to rest ... They just keep circling in my mind until I cannot get the chance to rest.... I'm just being contradict... Hate the me right now... Why can't I just be more firm with decision that I once made to myself ..

okok.. after tml paper will be sushi buffet with raven,rong hong and friends! Either I go sushi or kbox with shawnald they all.. See how..

What I wish is a place that I can rest ... I going down... I can feel sickness is coming... and they're close to me ...

just 3 simple words that I often said : take care hor

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After hunting for costumes, went to ngee ann.. Helping out to spray the stuffs at block 16 there... "gentle reminder" PLEASE DO NOT WEAR PURE COLOR TEE WHEN DOING THESE KIND OF STUFFS, ESPECIALLY WHEN THERE ARE CHENG,ALEXIS,WENMEI,KITKAT.. coz here will be ur end-product..

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When I was washing this tee, i saw the water turn pinky and I knew my tee is gone for good !! LOL

right now, I'm feeling mentally tired.. I still need you (1yr 6mth ago)....

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FUCKING NO TIME LEFT!!! ONE DAY TO ITLG!!!!!! OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!

WILL I MAKE IT OR I WILL SCREW IT???

18 more days to DANZATION'08 !!!! DAMN FAST LA!!!!

Before that, I gonna settled all the common tests!!! 5 papers!?!?!?!? wth la... This is killing me...

Let's work hard!!